“But if I go to hell, well then I hope I burn well”

…from Cake’s The Roof is on Fire.

Spent the night going through my playlist and am gladly listing down songs which I strongly, strongly believe that everyone should at least listen once to (just… because.)~ in no particular order:

1. The Drugs Don’t Work – The Verve (Fav. part of the song: The drugs don’t work, it just makes you worse)
2. Shining Light- Ash (Ditto: A full on chemical reaction)
3. Goodnight Goodnight – Hot Hot Heat (Ditto: you’re embarrassing me, you’re embarrassing me!)
4. [Falling in Love at a] Coffee Shop – Landon Pigg (Ditto: I think that possibly that maybe I’m falling for you)
5. You’ll Never Walk Alone – Liverpool’s Anthem Song (Ditto: Walk on, Walk On, with hope in your heart..)
6. Use Somebody – Kings of Leon (Ditto: Come as lovers, undercovers, on the street)
7. Fuck You – Lily Allen (Ditto: do you get the kick of being slow-minded?)
8. Someday – The Strokes (Ditto: on top of this, I ain’t gonna understand)
9. Walking with A Ghost – Tegan & Sara (Ditto: No matter which way you stay, you’re out of my mind)
10. Don’t Look Back in Anger – Oasis (Ditto: So I start a revolution from my head)
11. Lollipop – Mika (Ditto: Too much candy gonna rot your soul)
12. Monster – Meg & Dia (Ditto:  Love me, Love Me..that’s all I ask for)
13. One Wish – Ray J (Ditto: If I had one wish, we’ll run away)
14. Turning Japanese – Incubus (Ditto: I think I’m turning Japanese, I really think so)
15. America’s Suiteheart – Fall Out Boy (Ditto: I must confess, I’m in love with my own sins)
16. I Will Buy You A New Life – Everclear (Ditto: I will buy you a new car, perfect shiny and blue)
17. The Blower’s Daughter – Damien Rice (Ditto: I can’t take my eyes off of you)
18. La La Land – Demi Lovato (Ditto: Who said I can’t wear my dress with my converse?)
19. The Roof is on Fire – Cake (Ditto: But if I go to hell, I hope I burn well!)
20. Bohemian Rhapsody – Queen (Ditto: Anwhere the wind blows, It doesn’t really matter to me)
21. Nobody Knows – Tony Rich Project (Ditto: I’m dying inside but nobody knows it but me)
22. So I Fall Again – Phantom Planet (Ditto: but I know it’s something you can’t stop)
23. Vulnerable – Secondhand Serenade (Ditto: Let’s pretend that we’re alone..)
24. Hatin’ on the Club – Rihanna (Ditto: ohhh…. you got me hatin’ on the club)

But I’m all into what Mr. DJ burns for me! *doing the thumbs up + the dum dum song*

My faith is shaking. lala.

I nearly got hit by a car! Stupid guy! I was about to cross the road (was about to have dinner at one of the shops in Gaya Street) when this jeep suddenly came right in front of me and parked on the road island! I didn’t even notice the car was coming. I stood there blankly for a minute before continued walking. The fucked up thing was the driver acted like nothing happened when he stepped out of the car…possibly he didn’t even notice that he nearly hit a person! Cilakak betul.

Man-United won the match against Man-City with a score of 2-0. Demmit . There goes my Ipod (since I was betting on a 3-1 score). Nevertheless, glory glory Man-U! (Though I’m more a YNWA fan.lol)

Owh well…Here’s the lyric from Miley Cyrus’s The Climb which I’ve been currently playing in my car.and singing along to. I like.

Landon Pigg’s Coffee Shop and Owl’s City Hello Seattle is however played over and over again at home – with subwoofer.

Miley Cyrus – The Climb

I can almost see it
That dream I’m dreaming but
There’s a voice inside my head sayin,
You’ll never reach it,
Every step I’m taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what?s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

The struggles I’m facing,
The chances I’m taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I’m not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I’m going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I’m going to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It’s all about
It’s all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

♥ ♥ ♥

The conversation I had with her this evening got me thinking…are men never to be trusted? Is it worthwhile to get your hopes that high on someone that you THOUGHT was the fcukin’ one…but ended-up to be a cheating d-head! (Humming the song by Kate Nash ~ with my annoying low tones) Her whole situation reminded me exactly how it felt when my previous relationship went from super-exhilarating to super-destructive. I was very glad mine ended even if during that point of time, it felt like a few missiles were launched and landed precisely on the spot where it hurt the most ~ a perfect bullsye! I ‘recovered’ by vomitting myself out of it (yes.pathetic.). I wasn’t being a good listener as I was trying to get her to understand things from my point of view which obviously supports her without much queries and putting all the fault on her other half; blame it on my previous fcuk-up past.

“Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus” ~ is one of the most interesting piece I’ve ever read before, as it shows how men and women have diverse perceptions and views running through their minds…However..bear in mind that no two people are alike..regardless of their gender…but I believe that when it comes to cheaters, men and women have a lot in common. The longer you are in a relationship with someone, the more you understand their habits and attitudes. Any slight changes in behavior (for both sexes) can be easily detected and you may perceive them as signs of cheating. I might be a strong believer in logics and relevancy as all reasonable explanantions must first be made using the mind… but if you still have a gut feeling that something is still awfully twisted, there are times where you shouldn’t be ignoring those ’signs’ as your heart knows better.

I don’t have any good ‘advices’ to give you my dear friend, as I am a failure myself…

….but fret not, I’ll be here to listen and even cry with ya

( Could we just fly away and never come back?)

♥ Love hurts. Love sucks. Most of the time. ♥

P/s: VBF came to the rescue! Hoorahhh!

just… nothing.

Finished watching I Am Legend (owh yes. I am very, very outdated) and the movie … is scary! Decided to watch the movie with mum and dad but they went off to bed before the movie ended. I guess they weren’t interested to watch a movie where there is only a guy and a dog running around a destroyed New York. lol. Dad would prefer watching kung-fu movies while Mum will stick to her ‘gua kanget bangat sama dong‘ and ‘em haiya ma‘ episodes. Brother was no where to be found..he didn’t even bother pick-up his phone. So typical of him. His journey to the ‘rombengans’ was obviously diverted to another location I persume (jengjengjeng).

Am off to bed. It’s 1.37am in the morning and I want a pack of Ribena!

**Was smiling to myself when I read the message ~ you accepted with exclamation marks?? lol. Silly us but thanks okay?

I’m sick…

but I couldn’t sleep . . and feel very uncomfortable lying down.

So I wrapped myself with my blanket and eventually wasted my time doing this while waiting for his replies. *sighs*

Doing it the Black Sabbath Style!

I’m still quite full with the pizzaz I had just now with JC and Jem, but the drumsticks I saw on the kitchen table looks very tempting. I was eye-ing it a few times while on my way to the fridge but repetitively telling myself not to eat this late (fyi, it’s 12.08am in the morning). I’m starting to have a big appetite recently and it scares me! Would I want to go back to the time when I was nearly twice of the figure I weigh now? Owh no. I can’t barely run one full round of a badminton court during those ‘heavy’ days! But but but…I’m happy to gain an extra 3 kilos though. Hooray!

Amri came down from KL the other day for a gig in Keningau and I was so surprised to see that he at least dropped around 15kilos as well. He was a bit chubby the last time I met him and now he’s sooo skinny. We were sharing our ‘views’ and yes, I can understand how hard for him to actually explain the reasons behind it; because there is none.

I ♥ my waffle.

~ The excessive singing I had while on our way back home last night made my throat felt worse! I was already having a sore throat this couple of days and with additional screaming to Rihanna’s ‘Hating on the Club’ but doing it the Black Sabbath style, made everything worse! Hopefully I would get better. I couldn’t be handling an event later with this voice. How I wish everything would turn out okay tomorrow *keeping my fingers crossed*.

and owh..before I go off to bed.. I just want to share something with all of ya…I ALREADY ATE THE DRUMSTICKS (tidak tahan bahh.lol)