New found hobby: Complaining.

“Punya panas di luar!”. I sighed and sighed whenever I go for my usual trips to the main building; which is only a 100metre away from office…wasn’t because of the work, but purely because of the need to walk under the sun. Though I was using the umbrella~ella~ella~eh~eh, it still feels like my skin is burning from the heat. Pehh..Panas berabisss! The moment I stepped out the door, I was already making a lot of noise (read: non-stop mumbling). I know, I know..complaining will not in any way help coz I still need to drag myself to the other side *sighs.again*.

I don’t think she’s that stupid (tiba-tiba tukar cerita but ..oh well)..they might think she’s stupid but personally I don’t think she is! No one is stupid you see. There are only slow-learners, ignorant and heartless people (I even highlighted this part just to ’stress out’ my main point.hihihi) - but again,  they are not stupid. Calling them ’stupid’ might only be an expression of telling how absent-minded and insensitive that particular person is…yet I wonder who came up with the word, and how they define what stupidity is? I use the word ’stupid’ very often (please forgive me and my vulgarity)… but I don’t really mean it in a way as if I am saying that they’re totally ‘brainless’! I am usually refering to the situation..and not directly at that somebody! In this case, she is a slow-learner..the ‘blur-blur’ type which really affects her performance and I am having problem to ‘talk and correct’ her as what’s being requested. Adui. I am so not good at correcting others (coz I’m not that purrr-fect either!)…but if she keeps doing the ‘blur-blur’ thing… she might need to leave… like really LEAVE. I wouldn’t want that to happen. Kasiannn nih..Ihh. dia ni pun satu..kenapa bah blur-blur tu..ada masalah mengkali?? Ihhhhh..bikin sakit kepala!

I mentioned about my aunt getting married in my previous post…and like all wedding receptions… it was so ‘meriah‘! I like! (doing the thumbs-up).Last but not least, here are some of the photos taken during the day (and like always…mesti lah ada gambar saya rasa kunun paling lawa lahhhh! (even if in real life bidak.Wakakakakak) Phewitt-ing to myself. lol ~ )

having problem to upload. will continue another day.

P/s: It’s sad when u claimed to embrace ‘it’ yet u retaliate with ignorance. I hate. Case-closed.

That rusty old bridge.

Another aunt of mine getting married next Saturday… so we had a short meeting yesterday evening to segregate some of the things to be done on my aunt’s big day…and so I was asked to be the usher for guests attending thier wedding reception. They’ll have a few camps set-up at my aunt’s house compound on that day where tables and chairs  for guest shall be located. I’m just hoping that the weather would not be as hot as today (the walks I had to take from my office to the hospital seems… forever!) as I hate to be all sticky-icky.

Brother and I head back home directly after the meeting ended. We stopped by the bridge near the junction to my aunt’s house….the house just by the roadside (right in front of the bridge) is where my father spend his childhood before moving to KK during his younger years. House was left abandoned but was maintained to this day. Seems like the house is going to be renovated since a relative of us will soon be moving in. I can already see that they’ve installed a few air-conditioners. The area surrounding the house is quite dusty with pilings, steels and bricks since they are building a new bridge just beside the old one. Not sure if they are going to demolish the old rusty bridge. I hope they don’t…we don’t get to see this kind of bridge very often. The last time we actually came back to Topokon was possibly, 5 years ago! We managed to take a few shots before heading home.

It was half past 6pm and the day was getting dark. We took the long winding road from Topokon to Tamparuli and the road reminds me of ‘Initial D’! Not joking. I paused for a moment and was actually enjoying the snake-like road while brother drove the pick-up. Astaga. Bulih buat drift ni bahh tu jalan! I should bring JC here…Instead of going for CSF at Foh Sang or SNM at Lintas..let’s have a drive in Tuaran! (yang teda-teda nih!)

P/s: Had to ‘reject’ Inden’s offer to go for picnic. Lol. Lain kali ok..or better still, let’s go to CMBD for ‘adegans‘. Wakakakakakakakak.

**I’ll upload a few more photos tomorrow.

Could you do the thinking for me?

There are times that I wish I could just keep my eyes shut and the moment I open them, everything will turn out exactly as how I wanted it to be…but I know life is not that suhh-weet and easy. Am currently going through a phase where I am actually anxious of what is happening and going to happen in future. I do not want to sound as if I am exaggerating the whole situation (being a ‘drama queen’ is so not me). If I was ever caught creating some sort of commotion or being ‘extra dramatic’, it was all intentionally and perhaps, I was honestly just kidding (read: I’m covering up /saving my own ass but really…how a lame me can be so ‘exciting’?)

I am somewhat lost. Err.. I’m using the wrong word here…the correct word is ’stuck’..so let me rephrase that ~ I am somewhat ’stuck’, as I have a lot of things to put in mind and actions, but do not know where to start. Actually I do, but I’m just exultantly strutting and lazing around, ignoring the fact that I need to settle these things a.s.a.p. I feel like tapping the back of a random person, give him a list of things to complete and say “Could you do the thinking /job for me and come back once everything is perfectly done? I’ll bring you out for lunch in return ok?”. Possibly, I’ll just get that “are-you-crazy??” look. I am happy with the present transition that puts the bling back at all the right places. I am however not sure if I am ever ready to have that particular bling on my finger yet *rolling eyes*.

Being extra more cautious, I tend to be very, very particular with even the smallest and slightest matter…that resulted in me being extra more sensitive with hanky-panky issues. The emotional-stupidity shuttle has landed, with a big ego..and it may stay for a much longer period than I expect (commercial break: sudah ada ‘extra’, ada ‘more’ lagi. Apa punya Inggeris nih! Duh.)

To think back, I guess the thing I’m scared most about the present and future is…having responsibilities, fix commitments and the need to make decisions. I suck at making decisions. Seems like I always, always make the wrong ones. Maybe, it’s due to my lack of good judgment, the difficulty of differentiating what’s healthy and unhealthy for me. Silly eh…I’m becoming 24 years young this ‘09 and now only do I talk about it. lol. Owh well…How am I ever going to ‘grow up’ without accepting the fact that I need to ‘behave’? …though I know it’s as simple as reducing this and concentrating more on that (‘this’ & ‘that’ has yet to be determined).

P/s: and so I tell myself, having the usual exuberance is of no compromise. It’s just part of the whole process and a story where I will someday look back and never regretted doing… better off than not experiencing any.

**Photo below has no relation or whatsoever with this post. This was taken during Earth Hour (28/03/2009 9.17pm) when I stopped by at Waterfront. Quiksilver participated but Esprit didn’t. Drove around Likas, Luyang, Tjg Aru & KK to see how ‘caring’ our society is and the verdict …geez… most of us don’t really care.

My room is super-messy. I have cds, loads and loads of photos and albums, receipts, shoe boxes, printer manuals, coins and shirts lying here and there! (Astaga. Punya pemalas!). Didn’t manage to clear everything and get all the photos in order this past two, I mean three weeks so I dumped everything on the floor.. telling myself  “bisuk lah saya buat tu“.. my ‘bisuk‘ becoame ‘lusa‘ and ‘bisuk lusa‘. . and two weeks later… I still see my things lying on the same spot. Pathetic nih!

Mum came into the room telling me that one of my cuzzy’s his best friend died..:( Cuzzy got away but had several slashes and was admitted in the hospital. I was super-shocked to hear the news and first thing came into mind was what if I were in cuzzy’s shoe? (*touchwood*) .

Darnit. I just hope I cherish my friends well enough that I wouldn’t regret if anything happens! Palis-palis! The good thing is that I don’t take friends for granted (though I’m very bad at keeping contacts. Huhu) coz u never know when you will need them. Ihhh.. am going to check on my cuzzy.

Calling all FRIENDS!! Let us UNITE!! (Macam skinhead anthem pula saya nih.lol). Cheers mate!

Being all cheesy is…cute.

I wonder if I were a guy, will I ever be ‘brave’ (read: cheesy) enough to be using these pick-up lines on others…Hahaha! (and owh… the answer is yes…I did search the Net for these lines. but… No. I didn’t search for these so I can use them okayyy. Well maybe…but just for the sake of having a good laugh!)

Word of caution for the guys: You might either end up with a date if she gets your jokes (even the dirty ones) but if she has a trouble time understanding what the eff you’re mumbling to her…chances are you’ll get a hard slap in the face or worst, a kick in the ‘tutt’. Lmao!

However, personally I think pick up lines are cute! It’s a lot, lot funnier than having someone come up to you and started discussing about the whether!! Hey don’t lie…would you choose to discuss about the whether or start a conversation with a good laugh?? Lalalalala..:)

Tapiiiii…kadang-kadang bikin geli juga lah. Eeeeee!

1. I lost my virginity… can I have yours?

2. I’m not drunk. I’m just intoxicated by you.

3. I lost my phone number. Can I have yours?

4. Your feet must be tired, because you’ve been running through my mind all day long.

5. Do you believe in love at first sight or do you want me to walk by again?

6. Are you an Alien? [No, why?] Because you just abducted my heart.

7. Are you a parking ticket? Cause you got FINE written all over you.

8. Hi, I’m throwing the bachelor/bachelorette party for a friend of mine, and I need a stripper. Interested?

9. Fat penguin. [What?] I just wanted to say something to break the ice.

10. Is there an airport nearby or is that just my heart taking off?

11. I have only three months to live. ..

12. Did you fart, cause you blew me away.

13. I’m sorry, were you talking to me? [No] Well then, please start.

14. How about you sit on my lap and we’ll see what pops up?

15. The word of the day is LEGS, so let’s go to my house and spread the word.I may not be the best looking here, but I’m the only one talking to you.

16. How do you like your eggs in the morning? scrambled or fertilized?

17. My name is [your name], remember that, you’ll be screaming it later.

18. I noticed you have been checking me out the whole night so I decided to give you a chance to talk me.

19. If you were a new hamburger at McDonald’s, you would be McGorgeous.

20. Are you a gardener? ‘cos I want to put your tulips and my tulups together..

21. My love for you is like diarrhea … I can’t hold it in..

22. You’re last name should be Campbells, cus your mmmm… GOOD

23. If you were drugs, I would overdose.

24. If you were a guy, I’d be gay for you.

25. You might as well sleep with me because I’m going to tell all my friends that we did it anyway.

A combo of posts.

Gosh. Been disconnected for two weeks..haven’t had the chance to update ALF. I was too occupied with work and didn’t had the time to post anything. But but but, I did drafted my posts using my cell and only now am I able to transfer them to ALF.. just a short update for certain days as I couldn’t really recall on other happenings.

~ Slowness ~ March 26^th

Mua just reached home from badminton. My wrist hurts and part of my fingers hurt – probably I was not holding the racket the right way ~ I’m such an amateur but still, I had fun. As usual, I seem to lose my energy only after a mere 20 minutes of running back and forth, left to right. I can feel sweat running down my back and neck. It looked like somebody threw a bucket of water at me as I was sweating like crazy. To add, I have a very bad bruise on my left leg which contributed a lot to my slow performance (a lot slower from my usual slowness) since every single move I made was quite painful (sounds like I’m just giving excuses eh? lol. But really bahhh…).

~ Troublesome~ March 30^th

“Nine in the afternoon” ~ playing the song for a number of times while spending my lunch hour surfing the net and eating in front of the PC. My neck hurts for some reasons; possibly due to my sleeping position. I decided to update ALF while in the office since I couldn’t get online at home. (Honest explanation: my Internet connection was cut off. Hehe). Andy was supposed to go pay the monthly bill but guess he was too caught up at work. I could actually go and settle the bill but I’m way off budget…so I’ll just wait for bro to go. So there’s this thing call ‘online payment’…but sadly, both my bro & I didn’t activate our online accounts. Perhaps, we’re still being very old-skool.  We find excitement in queing at counters, sitting down for an hour  and discovering that the deposit machine suddenly turned offline after half an hour queing up. Boy, was that fun! (read: “siallll punya mesinnnnnn!” LOL)I actually had one before but I key-ed in the wrong password and was blocked ever since. Didn’t bother to unblock the thing…and look how troublesome it is for me now. So triple boo for me. Boo boo and boo.

Happy Happy Happy ~ 3rd April

Countdown to Cornelia’s birthday (her birthday falls on the 4th of April but since she won’t be available on the 4th, we decided to have the countdown)…and so the birthday girl came a bit late but since it’s your birthday, you’re then forgiven…bombarded with never-ending birthday wishes and gave her the tightest hug ever. Happy 24th Birthday Corn!

~ Alive & Kicking ~ 4^th April

(Morning – Afternoon) Saya berjalan jalan berpimpin tangan di 1Borneo bersama kekasihku. Yay. How ’skema’ does that sound? It sends shivers all over my body when I say it, but it was all good. I like the fact that some sentences conveyed in Malay sounds far more expressive than English itself. Seriously bah! Anyway, we went to have a look at the IBorneo IT Fair and we both fell in love with HP Compaq’s TX series and hey, we didn’t even cared to look for other stuffs. lol. Apaini!

(Evening) I went for Futsal practice with my colleagues …or should I refer them as my ‘team mates’, right after dinner  (started playing from 7.30 – 8.30pm). One of my colleagues managed to set up a team and included me in for the upcoming Futsal competition organized by our Hospital’s sports club. I worked out the proposal with our President where all rules and regulations are set up and was brought into the AGM for further discussion. Each team however will only consist of one male player. Reason being: Out of a 115 staffs, only 12% of them are males (I even gave you the exact percentage. Funny.). I’m in a female dominated workplace I must say.

The practice was fun but very, very tiring for me. I envied those who can actually play for one whole hour since I raised the white flag just after 30 minutes in the game and ends up sitting down beside the goal post (I call this act ‘restoration of energy’), while cheering the rest (clapping and boo-ing included.)