I’m having a terrible crush. (I’m making this a public thing.LOL)

The title said it all. Yes, I’m having a big crush on someone and no, it’s not at all the best feeling I’m having right now. I am a sucker for good conversations and I rarely find someone who can fascinate me with words. Even my ex (which claimed to be my other half for such a long time..demmit) is way out of the league. No, not as in being a sweet talker but holding a decent conversation plus a good sense of humour (as in me getting his owh-so-funny jokes) can pull me right through that ‘crush’ zone. I had a lot of crushes but this one seems so worth-it to pursue but heck, should I even tell that I have a crush on him? What would happen if he didn’t give me any response? I’ll be too embarrassed to even bumped into him again, and I have this uncontrollable awkwardness that really shows when it comes to this sort of situation. Buduhhhhhhhhh! Yes me.. the buduh buduh nihh. urghh!I’m calling my self buduh because I texted him by saying indirectly .. yes, I have a crush on you..demmit.

Here goes my text to him (and don’t laugh guys! I bet you had those moments also you know) and since he’s having problem with receiving text messages, I’m not so sure if he got this.

“You know what ___, u look good. Not trying to do a cheesy line here but hey take it as a compliment. I guess it’s normal to have that crush on someone who holds a good conversation. But hey don’t worry .. I won’t bug you as I know that someone you met at the club remains at the club (I wonder why I’m doing a lame explanation). and  I’m not drunk, I hope I was drunk ..but am not..demmit (am I allowed to say that?). I dunno if this would reach you tho. Nite. “

(text messages sent at 2.22 am in the morning of 3rd January 2008.LMAO. He was at the same place with his other friends and do I need to mention that I was pretending I was ignoring him the whole night ~ It’s purely part of the shit you tend to do when you like someone.  )

Bad news:  he didn’t respond. *sighs*